taper / relapse / taper

[seymourglass]

i don't know how it goes for most other folks, but i can claim that i've been trying to taper ever since april. and it feels more like a yoyo than a process. i've done it before, but this time something is off.

the first time tapering was fine, drop doses by 25% (roughly) daily until i just up and quit.

this time i drop the dose. wait. wait. and hit. goddamn -- what is it about this dope? i know: i wake up sick, sweating. a hot shower does nothing but help clear my sinuses. downstairs i lay out the fix. and in no time i'm okay. not great. but what's so bad about feeling great? so i hit again. and it ain't great, but it is something.

about a month back i dropped it all and said to hell with the taper. and i'd hit whenever. the tolerance crept back up and and now it seems to be the same thing all over again.

here's to tryin.

[edarrin]

Just keep trying. Eventually you'll win.

[sorryone]

Good advice....start over & keep trying...I just gave up the taper & am now without vic's until at least 12/30/09 - so here goes my real attempt at not using.
Robyn

[AutumnRaven18]

I have been using hydros & oxys for years approximately 8 to 20 pills a day for about 6 mnths. I decided to try th thomas withdrawal recipe, so got the valiums,dramamine,immodium,vitamins.I took my last 5mg. oxy thurs.night about 830,I slept most of fri.with the help of a few val.Today I did ok no stomach problems,but at 630pm broke down & took 4 lortab 10s for no real reason anxiety maybe? I can not explain it!!Can someone please help?

[gamegirl]

Hi Autumn,

My name is Amanda and welcome to the forum. I have been clean from a vicodin and demerol habit for 34 days now. I was taking 10-12 vicodin 10's and 3 50mg demerol a day. It is difficult to stop but so worth it in the end. Maybe anxiety was the reason you took them. Maybe your brain was playing tricks on you. The physical sucks but the mental is the real challange.

Please let me know what I can do to help.

Remember we can do this!!

Amanda

[sorryone]

Hi Autumn,
   One slip is not the end, just move past it & stay away from the pills. If you went that long & your issues were not super bad then you are on your way to freedom like Amanda.  The mental is the worst for me, between sadness & depression & knowing what will "fix" it I have a hard time.  I am back on  my taper & am going to try like heck to ignore the voice in my head!
   You can do this!  Stay strong & keep updating us...we are cheering you on!
Sorryone

[Nakoa]

Autumn,

I just read your post and am wondering if you are still trying to get clean?  Please post your status and I will try to be of some help to you.  There is alot of support here and your last post was on January 9th.  I was 6 day's into my withdrawal then and must have missed your post.  Let us know how you are doing.

Nakoa

[edarrin]

I was reading some of Seymourglass's posts.

It's either bulls**t or I have finally met someone crazier than me.

You will never taper using IV. I tred sooo many times. Exactly what you are describing. A strange blurr that is consantly 'quitting'.


I realized, for me at least, a steady level is muuuuuch easier to taper from than consant 'bonks'. I never got anywhere with that method either.

Like you I have to function. Stay on those MSContins (slow release morphine or similar) and spread out the interval between doses slowly but surely as you go.

Use benzos and/or judious(sp?) use SAO for those 'bigger' dose jumps that will inevitably occur.

You'll have to accept that you cannot use them anymore to get  high.